in the midst.

i find myself in the midst of another paper that is supposed to be written. and yet the motivation factor is nonexistent.

the new job began today. excellent. enjoyable. excitement.

and my mind is wrapped around a thousand other thoughts. stupid emotions. (i now remember the reason i have always worked so hard to bury said feelings). 

i will continue to remind myself that being alone does not necessarily mean i must be lonely. especially during the holidays. i mean, check out the positives here. (my personal fave may have something to do with not worrying about how drunk you get as there is no necessary screwing later in the evening). classy. and classic. bring on the hot chocolate (and peppermint schnapps).

but the night is passing quickly. and my next shift with the new place of employment will soon greet my weary eyes that will have not slept a wink. and i imagine there will still be few words on paper by that point in time.

so i bid thee adieu.