and so it goes.

the reality is. life is busy. and it goes by quickly. and that is precisely what accounts for my absence. please do not be too hurt. though i have missed you dearly.
this is actually the first week that campus programming is without a program (and i am not crying). instead, i am catching up on homework and reading and writing.

(which i am supposed to be doing... reading "educating citizens: preparing america's undergraduates for lives of moral and civic responsibility"). but my mind drifts... my migraines have been steadly worsening as of late. and so i finally sucked it up and put a call in late last week to my neurologist. a grad student simply doesn't have the time to deal with extra migraines when she already barely has time to sleep. anyway, the response i received was simply that they would call in a prescription to double up on what i have already been taking for the past couple years... topamax.
and let's be honest. i'm fine with this. it's a solution to the problem. at least for the time being. and i'm being extra careful about other external factors in my life... like allergens and such. but a little piece of me is a tidbit worried about the side effects (yes, even years after first beginning to take this medicine). i don't have any weight that i can afford to lose this time. and i don't have any appetite half of the time anyway... so a medicine that is going to make me lose my appetite... but the part i really cannot handle anymore of is the feeling of being "dumb." my quickness of mind has already been jeopardized since beginning this. i already can't remember things. and i've learned to cope. and i'm okay with that. now i just hope it doesn't get worse by doubling the dose...

so here's to hoping...
(and to my mind).

i love.

anderson cooper podcasts. (oh and his blog).

diet coke. even though i quit drinking it a few years ago. but i still love it. or maybe just the thought of it's beautiful sweetness in my mouth.

steamed vegetables. and the ease they bring to my life. not to mention the health factor.

airports. (or maybe it's just people watching that i love). and therefore i love that i get to fly to san diego in just over a week. and i have free drink coupons. thank you southwest.

driving. the open road. playing music loud and singing along like a crazy woman (maybe adding in a few dance moves every few moments).

the prospect of being "professor molly" to a select group of freshmen students who will be required to attend my weekly class session. every friday morning. to discuss such deep issues as: service, humility, attention and intention, sabbath, integrity, and friendship. oh the joy of university 1000 courses. (stay tuned as i'm sure that i, as teacher, will have fun stories to share).

now i'm off to create handouts and pretend that i am "official." love it.

barefoot in the nightgown.

it's been one compelling week. (i think that's the best way to put it). work was crazy. as always. but lots got done. and life after work... well, i keep finding out more about it as the days pass.

my good pal arrived back in waco following his excursion with the fam to a classy resort on an island. so tuesday we decided to pursue fun. which ended with me awaking wednesday morning to find a taco in my purse. glorious.

thursday and friday held the always enjoyable student activities staff retreat. a night away. to reflect. to relax. to retreat. (who am i kidding?)

and then. long lost friends began arriving from all over to create a delightful weekend experience. one that included a point of me running through the streets of waco in my nightgown while barefoot. at four am. lovin' it (and the diseases i probably procured during the process).

now tis back to real life. and program after program.

kissing fun goodbye... now.

independence.

a new start. for a new year. and new thoughts swarm through my mind each moment. 

where do i go from here?

i always thought life was going to be one particular way... and it's not. and now i'm here. with nine months of graduate school left. and a world before me.

dream job today. working with an organization like this.