i have never been good at empathy. it's not one of my strengths. not something i pride myself on. i am good at getting things done. give me a list. and it will be completed in no time.
actions. i'm marvelous with action plans. i like accomplishing line items.
feelings? not my cup of tea. feelings... they take me out of my comfort zone.
tis why going to counseling was difficult for me. accepting that i needed help. that i could not do it all on my own. but looking back, the sessions that were forced at first were a saving grace.
i want that for my friends. i want that for those i care about. the realization that to do it all on our own is not possible. and not necessary. it is a scary realization. and one i continually work to grasp at. everyday. one that i know i have not reached a complete understanding of. but yet the beaten path winds on and i follow it past the colored leaves and broken twigs. knowing that at some point i will reach the rainbow. whatever that may be.
and i do want that for my friends. for them to be free from the necessity of thinking they must do it all.
or be it all...
so now what?
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How appropriate was that post to my life right now?
I'm really thinking about rehoming Sherman. He is a great dog. But the combination of active puppy + toddler is about to send me over the edge.
I just dread him being boarded in two weeks b/c I know life is going to be so easy that I'm not going to want to pick him up from the boarding facility--and he deserves a family who can't wait to pick him up, KWIM?
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