the reality is. life is busy. and it goes by quickly. and that is precisely what accounts for my absence. please do not be too hurt. though i have missed you dearly.
this is actually the first week that campus programming is without a program (and i am not crying). instead, i am catching up on homework and reading and writing.
(which i am supposed to be doing... reading "educating citizens: preparing america's undergraduates for lives of moral and civic responsibility"). but my mind drifts... my migraines have been steadly worsening as of late. and so i finally sucked it up and put a call in late last week to my neurologist. a grad student simply doesn't have the time to deal with extra migraines when she already barely has time to sleep. anyway, the response i received was simply that they would call in a prescription to double up on what i have already been taking for the past couple years... topamax.
and let's be honest. i'm fine with this. it's a solution to the problem. at least for the time being. and i'm being extra careful about other external factors in my life... like allergens and such. but a little piece of me is a tidbit worried about the side effects (yes, even years after first beginning to take this medicine). i don't have any weight that i can afford to lose this time. and i don't have any appetite half of the time anyway... so a medicine that is going to make me lose my appetite... but the part i really cannot handle anymore of is the feeling of being "dumb." my quickness of mind has already been jeopardized since beginning this. i already can't remember things. and i've learned to cope. and i'm okay with that. now i just hope it doesn't get worse by doubling the dose...
so here's to hoping...
(and to my mind).
this is actually the first week that campus programming is without a program (and i am not crying). instead, i am catching up on homework and reading and writing.
(which i am supposed to be doing... reading "educating citizens: preparing america's undergraduates for lives of moral and civic responsibility"). but my mind drifts... my migraines have been steadly worsening as of late. and so i finally sucked it up and put a call in late last week to my neurologist. a grad student simply doesn't have the time to deal with extra migraines when she already barely has time to sleep. anyway, the response i received was simply that they would call in a prescription to double up on what i have already been taking for the past couple years... topamax.
and let's be honest. i'm fine with this. it's a solution to the problem. at least for the time being. and i'm being extra careful about other external factors in my life... like allergens and such. but a little piece of me is a tidbit worried about the side effects (yes, even years after first beginning to take this medicine). i don't have any weight that i can afford to lose this time. and i don't have any appetite half of the time anyway... so a medicine that is going to make me lose my appetite... but the part i really cannot handle anymore of is the feeling of being "dumb." my quickness of mind has already been jeopardized since beginning this. i already can't remember things. and i've learned to cope. and i'm okay with that. now i just hope it doesn't get worse by doubling the dose...
so here's to hoping...
(and to my mind).
